Wednesday, February 2, 2011

Self-Awareness Epiphany!

I was catching up on my sister's blog after yet another recent night of staying up way too late (5:24 am? Dammit, Sarah!) and something occurred to me: I really suck at putting on nail polish. Another less superficial thought also happened by: I want to blog about my life, but my life is boring. I'm currently unemployed, finished school, and entirely directionless. And this blog could be my non-religious saviour.

One of my major problems is that I lack motivation. Another one, and the one I would do anything to avoid admitting to myself, is that I'm lazy. Yes, there are somewhat legitimate reasons for it, but in the end, nothing can make it go away but my own determination.

In 2009, I was working at the local Arts Council. That position ended in November of the same year. Since then, I've been out of work and feeling useless. I should point out that I do have two legitimate mental issues, Clinical Depression and Generalized Anxiety Disorder, but I've been hiding behind them. I've been using them as excuses to hold me back. That's not to say that they don't both make some things incredibly difficult for me, but I know that I can do more than what I'm doing now.

I know I don't get a whole lot of comments (though I appreciate every one), but I'd like to hear your thoughts on this. How would you feel if I blogged about me getting my act together? Not every post will focus on how things are coming along, but I'll post one or two progress entries to keep me motivated. How does that sound? Awesome? Awful? Possibly tolerable?

Well, don't dwell too long on this, my friends. The subject of my next post will be the film Resident Evil: Afterlife. I warn you, there will be spoilers, so if you have yet to see it, do it now.

Is it out on DVD yet?

2 comments:

  1. I'd read it! Well, I already do. I'd keep reading. One cheer for the proposed continuing blog topic. You can do it! (I mean succeed by "it")

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  2. lol Thanks, Katie! I appreciate the vote of confidence =) You blogging about running has inspired me and my possible blog additions.

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